JARED IS MY FIRSTBORN CHILD AND I LOVE AND MISS HIM DEARLY, JARED WAS THE FIRST PERSON OTHER THAN MY GRANDPARENTS TO SHOW ME UNCONDITIONAL LOVE AND THERE ARE NO WORDS TO EXPLAIN WHAT HIS ABSENCE HAS DONE TO ME. JARED AND I HAD OUR ISSUES BUT I LOVE AND LOVED HIM MORE THAN MY NEXT BREATH......MY CHILDREN ARE WHAT MAKES MY LIFE WORTH LIVING AND NOW THERE IS A WHOLE IN MY HEART THAT NOBODAY CAN EVER FILL OR REPLACE. MY CHILD DID NOT DESERVE TO HAVE HIS LIFE TAKEN FROM HIM LIKE HE DID AND THEN TO BE TREATED LIKE AN UNWANTED ANIMAL OR YESTERDAYS GARBAGE AFTER HE WAS SHOT JUST MAKES ME SICK TO MY STOMACH"LITERALLY" IT WAS IN HIS NATURE TO PROTECT THOSE HE LOVE BUT HE JUST DID NOT DESERVE TO DIE LIKE HE DID BUT GOD NEVER SLEEPS NOR SLUMBERS, HE SITS HIGH AND LOOKS LOW...I MIGHT NEVER HAVE ALL OF THE ANSWERS BUT THEY CAN'T HIDE IT FROM HIM AND EACH AND EVERY ONE RESPONSIBLE FOR WHAT HAPPENED THAT NIGHT WILL HAVE TO ANSWER FOR THEIR ACTIONS WHEN THEY FACE GOD FACE TO FACE COME JUDGEMENT DAY !!!!! JARED MY BABY YOU ARE RESTING NOW AFE FROM ALL DANGER AND HARM AND YOU REST ON MY SON UNTIL WE SEE YOU AGAIN.................I KNOW YOU ARE LOKING OVER ME AND JORDAN AND ONE DAY GOD WILL EASE THIS PAIN OF MY BROKEN HEART RHAT ACHES FOR YOU EACH AND EVERY DAY SINCE YOU TOOK YOUR LAST PRECIOUS BREATH.........R,I.P. JARED CHRISTOPHER GILLAM 4-22-1993 TO 6-3-2012